wat a sad day~

was working 2day doin up a customer's car which i din't get 2 finish last week due to insufficient time n continue 2 upgrade his ride+a lil complaint from him as da lowering spring he bought it n brought it over 2 my 2 install+a lil bit of modicafation 2 increase his car's height all da way from seremban n i'm so honoured tat finally i got a customer who willing 2 travel so far jus 2 look for me as i'm building my carrier thru on9 as he got good feedbacks from other members who has done their car wit me so far~
i was so happy working on his car till i near clamped off my left thumb while lowering da jack a lil 2 fast n i was adjusting d 'stand' for da car to sit on it properly so i can have lie down safely while underneath da car while taking off da screw securing d absorber to release da spring so i can change to his after-market lowering spring+1 inch thicker rubber mounting to make his ride not too low like last week i need to take off another time due to in proper rubber mounting given by spare part shop which i nearly lose it like last yr i had an accident while learning new thread as a 'makat lou[mudguard]' which my thumb accidentally wen into da fan which was spinning at d top speed n i was really lucky to escape it from losing my thumb wit two bad cuts[3cm n 2cm] on it n took 9 stitches 2 sew back da opened wound on my thumb n tis time my thumb got stuck in between d stand n da car n i was very lucky as i got put extra rubber mat n my thumb was jus underneath n stuck on it on da stand 2 protect da edge from getting dent like other tire shop jus jack up d car like tat n sum times wen u look properly u'll see da dent on da side,otherwise if not bcuz of tis rubber mat,i dun think i can b here writting another page of my dairy as i'll b hospitalize for losing my left thumb :`(
then 2nd thing happen wen about finish my last customer car i slipped n fell straight on d ground n hurt my backbone n luckily da ground was flat if not it'll b worst result tat i might not able 2 stand up to finish his car. luckily was a soft fall n da pain wasn't tat bad but took sum pain-killer 2 kill sum pain then wen over cheras look for my fren n got myself a new pad lock to secure my new store-room at my dad's new shop as for now n will sleep early later 2nite after writing tis page n play wit my son later n no feeling so well,to continue my game later~
wishing i can turn back d time wen i still had my girl wit me cuz i missed her care n her touch to makes me feels so much better even thou tat time i got da bad cut on my thumb wasn't tat bad cuz she was there for me but as for now only my lil boy is all i have now~ :(



MLTR - The Actor

30th October 09, 10:37pm

so happy wen i saw my luck was 100% on 2day morning n wen off 2 work happily as i few things 2 do wen i reach d shop,1st thing of all which i gave a call 2 our main supplier who v always get d local's tire+other imported tires[execpt michelin as my dad's shop has all d tires sizes tat i needed was there] was 2 my horror wen d girl answer me no stock n i was like 'oh,shit' in my heart then continue call other supplier 2 get d specific tire tat i needed it fix to 1 of my ex-gf's car which her husband accidentally hit a pothole n damage d tires quite badly till i can't repair it n i finally found 1 supplier got stock n his place is in ard taman mayang n i drove all da way 2 collect d tire as they dun send d tire to me jus 1 pcs as many ppl who work in business line of cuz won't make a lost profit by petrol+labour for d delivery guy. after done edi,she ask me 2 come collect her can n fix d new tire in+then also do up alignment balacing for her as well s i can see tat both husband n wife has been working hard 2 earn more cash for better future n for their kids n no time 2 dropby my place 2 do a small job which took ard 34mins 2 get da job done as i gave her car a new alignment setting as i can feel for her other running tires's thread shows me tat she has been taking corners+driving aggressively jus like my last ex-gf n i set it to a lil bit aggressive driving style so tat her tires will wear out evenly.
after my job done n while waiting for her 2 collect her car i wen took a my dad's 1 1/3foot clam 2 clam a pad lock which has been securing tat store-room like ard got at least 10yrs++ as i can c all da junks inside rotten up wit termites,cockroaches n lizards n i was like 'omg~!!!!' then no choice also n i have 2 bear wit those stuff which i nearly fainted sees-ing those ugly things running ard n took me 1hr 2 clean every junk out n goin 2 wash it on next day morning as was getting late edi,then wen home wash myself up a bit then wait-ed for her 2 come collect her car then he ask me 2 join her for dinner wit her husband n his lil sis in OUG then head back home n get my shower n continue my usual stuff playing on9 games in fb,chatting,blogging n listening to music in youtube then play wit my lil son n goes 2 sleep~ :)


MLTR - I'm Gonna Be Around~



p/s:sorry for late posting it up as i fall asleep after playing wit my lil boy in my room~ :p

29th october 2009 , 9.35pm

y am i sad but yet happy tis few days which i also couldn't understand myself 2~
partly happy 2day cuz my uncle gave me another good news which i can another extra store-room located behind d new shop as it's has been a yr since my dad's company rented it n i found tat nobody is using so i ask him last week about it then my uncle said will ask d tenant for d key,unfortunately d tenant loses d key but they told my uncle tat i can cut d old pad lock n use it n 1st thing in mind is to use it 2 store all my scrap items which i can sell them+i also at same time i can store up my used engine oil 2 sell it~
n not forgetting tat it's quite big n i can store a jack in it so tat i can use it on sun which my dad's shop is totally close n i work on tat particular as i got no where 2 go or do anything since i'm edi single n better use up my free time to do up car repair than jus sitting in da house rotting away+getting nag by my parent for sitting almost 24/7 in front of my pc on9 playing wit on9 games in facebook n at same time surfing ard looking for customer as usual 2 expand my income n there's many things tat i wanna do in life n have been missing it so much which last time i jus use my com for playing on9 games n nothing much till da day wen i got myself so lucky 2 have a lovely gf~


a song for her if ever get a chance 2 listen 2 it from taylor swift[T.S.] - LOVE SONG n You BELONG WIT ME


sad part is i no longer do things where i used 2 b as i always try my very best 2 b on her side even thou i'm far apart from her as her parent's dun like me look for her everyday,guess tat i need 2 get myself a life now at least helping out sum ppl who is in really need[morally support la] 2 keep myself busy at all times as i dun like myself being 2 free n nothing better 2 to~


Nickelback - Gotta Be Somebody~

wen sadness n happiness colides , 9.55pm

within this few months of everything which happens 2 me as most of it already written on d previous post which is part of my sadness of my life which already happen n i begins 2 start a new life/leaf,2day was also a good news for me wen i wen 2 work after see-ing doc for my 2nd degree of gastric due 2 my very improper meals which i took per day was really bad as i normally eat at least 3-5meals per day n sum of my close fren n girl of my life other than my parent know how much i ate per day each day to sustain n maintain my body weight n not 2 let it drop n also once i promise my girl tat i'll take extra meals 2 gain more weight as she always said i'm so skinny n not nice 2 hug where i've drop from nearly 54.3kg drop straight to nearly 50kgs jus in 3weeks after broke up as meals tat i took per day was ard 1/5 of my total meals per day n 1 of my fren who owns a francise arisan which selling fried chick near my house at pasar malam every fri nite so shock 2 c me become so thin till she can see my veins on my arms pop out so visible n ask me wat happen n i told her no appetite 2 eat dute 2 my broke up relationship n i'm now recovering from gastric n fever[got it tis morning] n hopefully i can re-gain back those weights tat i've lost asap cuz i do not wan 2 let other ppl sees me like a drug addict as i edi look very skinny liao.
wat makes me happy 2day is wen i reach my dad's shop,my dad told me 2 clean up my lil stor-room tat they gave me use last time 2 store all my stuff especially those engine oil,used engine oil n etc etc which i've put there for d pass few months n tot they wanna re-furbish da place 2 become customer's waiting room n ask me 2 move everthing out n 1st thing in my mind which i tot my dad is asking me 2 move away then few mins later i ask my dad y they wanna make a room for customer then he also said will make a small room for me 2 store my stuff n equiment n i was so shock n also happy cuz my dad allows me cantinue 2 use his place n usual place where i always do up my customer's car till 1 day i got enuf money 2 open up my own shop,i'm so happy tat finally after 2yrs of my very hardship working by myself n i'm able 2 get a place from my dad wen he gave me a green light as he n both my uncles can c tat most of my customers tat i've did all came back for my cheap[sum time got ppl also complaint expensive] service but most important is my quality of workmanship is good n statisfy my customers but i still will neva rely on him n get customer from him but everyday i'll always continue look for my own customer thru on9 jus like wat i've did for d pass 3yrs ago after many yrs of working for other ppl n gaining expirience n now i can do up many task like performing minor,major service on a car,change absorbers,brake pads,petrol filter,gasket n knock on minor bodyworks on da car+spray except overhaul a car because it needs a proper space 2 do it n i do not wan 2 take da risk 2 lose any small spare part which will cause me 2 lose money later+headache later. i'm very happy so far for my dad n uncles supporting me a small place without charging me any rental but of cuz wen i got no work i'll need 2 help them up since i got a free space. but at da same time i'm also sad cuz i couldn't share tis happy news wit her as i no longer need 2 suffer so much from finiancial prob anymore but all she got from me was sadness which i really felt sum times tat i'm really useless 2 her as i'm not highly educated ppl n tat's y i need 2 work from very bottom n also mayb she came wrong time in2 my life 2 1/2yrs earlier where i was jus starting my own career of my own~
another happy news for me tat i'll getting myself a glider[not sure from who] 2 keep myself accompany during all my free times n loneliness as for now my heart will shut it wit a big rock n will b waiting for da right n mighty 1 2 set my heart free wen it heals from d broken heart which shattered 2 pieces 1 day mayb in ard few months or few yrs time which i also dunno wen will it heals but i'm still picking up pieces of my heart n try 2 mend it back n try 2 forget her wat we have wen thru ups n downs 2gether 2 1/2yrs back ago which is totally impossible as she was 2 attach 2 me in my life~


Backstreet Boys - Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely~
Backstreet Boys - Quit playing games with my heart~
Backstreet Boys - Memories~
Backstreet Boys- Shape Of My Heart~
Backstreet Boys - Drowning (Wet Version)
Backstreet Boys - the one~
Backstreet Boys - Larger Than Life~
Backstreet Boys - as long as u love me

9.01am,6th's day after wat happen~

wake up late 2day i feel so cold n numb over my body n felt my head so hot n notice got fever over nite cuz had been cying whole nite from da moment i brought back my daughter's[Minnie] emptied cage+sum her accessories tat she make[D.I.Y] n i can tell u tat she's good wit it!! but jus can't imagine tat she also return me sum other things tat i dun expect 2 c at all but she did it n makes me really sad as it was bought it for her specially but hardest of all is da empty cage without my lil daughter in it as i neva got da chance 2 c her again in my whole life n espcially how heart broken is my heart which i couldn't c her n play wit her 1 last time b4 my girl broke up wit me till da day she's ran away from my girl making both of us so sad cuz she was part of our life being our lil princess as wen i got her tat time,she loves 2 climb on me jus 2 poo-ed n urine on me b4 she goes back 2 my girl n how lil i know tat it's her habit 2 make me becoming her toilet. i still remember da day wen she jump-ed off from me on da bridge into da big drain in taman connought's pasar malam n me n my girl nearly lose hope for losing her as u all should know how big is tat freaking drain can even fit a Hummer's width n i felt so guilty for taking her out but surprisingly wen i called few times n look for her n she responded 2 my call n come 2 my wit whole body soak wit those drain water n guess wat?? i jus took my shower n there she climb on my back of my neck n start 2 cuddle herself n rest on me n i could c how relieved is my girl wit her tears nearly roll out wen v finally got our daughter back n finally on 19/10/09 is da day where is all god's fate tat she's finally gone for good da rest of our life while makes me cried like wen my dog passed away last time~
mayb it was a right choice tat she choose 2 sell off d cage but i refuse it n now my turn 2 b emotional,sigh~

a song from my heart by all time fav boy band backstreet boys - Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely

22nd October 2009,Thursday 2.28pm~

really dunno wat 2 write n din't go 2 work 2day due 2 my gastric become worst n really no choice 2 see doc cuz i've promise da girl of my life 2 take good care of myself even thou i really hate 2 see doc n eat their bitter medicine cuz i really need 2 stand by my own feet now as i got no ppl 2 fully support me.
at da same time i get 2 talk a bit wit her 2day due of my stupidness act tat cause so many things become more complicated tat i've make her in position n at da same time she finally gave up hope on our beloved daughter minnie[sugar glider] which v all dunno if she still alive or not as it's has been 4 days since she's missing n i really tot of asking 1 of our fren 2 help her retrieve her 2 come back by putting another glider in her cage 2 gave a nature's call even thou da chances if very small but at least i really wish 2 try but since she really gave up n i got no choice 2 gave up also cuz for all da glider's lover knows tat glider can't survive on their own as they're not a wild glider which they can take care of themself even 2 survive longer~
i really missed my daughter[Minnie] n no1 knows how sad am i wen my pet dog passed away wen i was form5 tat time due 2 his old age n he has been my best companion n fren even thou he once betray me by not eating da ham i gave 2 him n my mom force me 2 ate it cuz i wasted her food n tat day i wen skool as usual n i was very uneasy cuz i neva expect tat my dad called a vet 2 come 2 our house n put my best fren 2 sleep forever due to his old age[human age 12yrs old] n burried him outside out of our house n i burst out n cried for 2weeks mourning for him as i could remember wen my dad 1st got him back from a pet shop wen he's ard 2-3months old i was very scare of him n i tried ran away from him n he chase me n make me tripped over n fell down n broke 1 of my tooth n make me angry stand up n took my sandal 2 throw at him to shoo him off from me,but day passed so quikely my my feeling of hate-ing him for make me broke my tooth out last time turn in love companion wen ever i'm sad everytime wen i was noti n get scolded from my parent n my dog was da only 1 there for me even thou v neva understand each out but but he's always there for me wen i need him so much n badly. as so far,my dog n sugar glider will b my pet of my of life n memory being 2gether wen they're still alive wit me~
at da same time,i've finally got last piece of puzzle from my ex-gf n i do really wish wat she told me was true n it clears my mind n head tat she's not a 3rd party as she knews how it feels 2 b 1 n tat's y she waited for tis guy 2 broke up b4 they couple up 2gether,now all wat i can do is 2 wish them all da best in life 2gether n happy 2gether as i TOH CHEE ANN no longer can give her wat she really needs in life n instead i gave her d opposite n i wanna say 'thank u' her has been very supporting gf 2 me during my hardest time in my life being 2gether wit her~
tis is a song for them by Tina Tuner - simply the best


n a song for myself sang by Enya - only time tat can heal my heart,forgive myself,n love da next person who will b wit me n cherish n make her happier in future~
n i'm sorry 2 all da ppl tat i've hurt tis while for 2 1/2yrs n i wan 2 appologise sorry,blame on me

3rd day after my ex's lil girl missing~

it has been 3rd day since our beloved sugar glider[Minnie] missing n i'm still hoping tat she'll come back 2 my ex as she care n love minnie so much tat she cried for 2 nites in a row looking at d empty cage without her baby n her life goin 2 change soon if minnie doesn't come back 2 her another 1-2days time at tis moment i total understand wat is her feelings now but wat can i do other than jus sitting here everyday b4 n after work waiting for her latest news update n do nothing other than jus wishing everything will go fine again like usual days n routine for her make food every nite n morning n nite n also play wit her every night for 2hrs~
here's how a glider[not Minnie] looks like if u all dunno wat it is


dedicating a song for my ex-gf sang by enya - only time~

n i love my sugar glider[Minnie] very much even thou she's no long wit me anymore n i'll alway remember u in my heart~

my 3rd day after being single~

jus reach home n saw my ex-gf's msn title tat my lil precious sugar glider[Minnie] had been missing due 2 her carelessness n falls asleep leaving her room's window open n our noti lil girl must have escaped from her room leaving her all alone by herself now seeing her empty cage cried loud n heart pain which i truely understand her feelings right now as i used 2 kept sum mouse pets~
all wat i can do now is 2 pray 2 God tat she'll come back 2 my ex-gf since she's has been gone for nearly 48hrs from now~
i felt very heart pain cuz since our broke up n she neva gave me a last chance 2 take sum pic wit her n play wit her for 1 last time which now i'm even unhappy n sad for my ex-gf losing our lovely cute pet who had accompany her for da passed 13months+1day during our ups n downs in relationship n really hope tat she'll come back 2 mommy in tis few days time~
n as for me,even thou she's not close or bond wit me n did babysit my lil daughter few hrs a week due 2 her facial wash in mid valley n for few day due my ex-gf wen out-station few days n i too felt da pain in my heart n as i type now wit my tears rolling down :`(
i love my lil daughter minnie~





lonely~ by akon

1st day of life~

tis is 1st day after 2months of broke up n starting my new day 2day~
dunno wat 2 do yet so will jus stay at home wit my cyber world as usual n listening 2 youtube+mp3 n downdload sum new songs n learn new things which i neva tot of doin tat as i've been spending 2 much time wit my girl last time~
it's time for me 2 get up n b myself for who n wat i am~
i might still look like 2nd version of man of steel+no feeling from wat u all might seen me from outside but pls try not 2 hurt my heart/feelings as they're frigile like a glass n soft like a wool/durian~

i will survice~ by gloria gaynor
beautiful~ by akon

so much relieve~

ah,i'm so much relieve now after met P.Steven a.k.a. dad,fren or buddy n burst out from da moment wen i saw him walking toward me n i hugged him n cry n wept on his shoulder for quite a long time which i dunno how long but i know kinda longer than d last time i hugged n cry on him was like at least got 4-5yrs back. tis time he's da last person who i seek as i knew he's a busy man wit him work tat's y i dun planned 2 disturb him at all but not 2day cuz i knew he's goin to DH n i force myself out n met him n at least now i know tat he'll b always there for me even thou i'm in my darkest/saddest hr of my life he's da only refuge tat only can b there for me other than da 1 whom i truely love wit all my life~

n i wanna special thanks to my new fren[Alvin] from lowyat[LYN] member has been my nice hearing ears n also accompany me had my late dinner+supper n to my surprise da food there was really nice n i ate so much till having a hard time 2 sit down now~ XD

man in da mirror~

finally~

it's has been exactly 2 months since she left me~
feels so sad n still couldn't let it go fully as she was once d girl whom i really love n care so much in my life n whom also da only girl so far can accept me for all my weakness~
i'll b spending most of my time blogging since i got nothing better 2 do as i jus came back from my ex-gf's house area after looking at her damage kelisa makes me so heart broken see-ing her beloved 'lau gong' no longer leng zai edi~
da workmanship is very bad knocking from wat i can c n i really cannot accept it but no choice had 2 accept it also cuz she's no longer my gf any more but other guy's gf as for now~
jus hope he can help her 2 seal up 3inch scar hole on her rear bumper below otherwise will start 2 rust n water will go in~
jus wish i could end my life jus like tat~

total eclipse of my heart - by bonnie tyler

sigh,another sad day n mood swings~

jus out of curiousity 2 find out y my mood suddenly swings tis 2 days n finally drove ard n found out tat my ex-got in2 accident these few days back n i was so sad 2 c da scar on her rear bonet n from da damage i saw her bumper got a big hit :`(
really reminds me of wen my grandpa passed away on tat day i can't concentrade on my work n lost focus on my work n wasted a bottle of engine oil while servicing a kenari. at 1st i tot not enuf sleep or not enuf coffee of da day but only found out tat on tat nite itself ard 2.30 am tat my grandpa passed away n few yrs back during my my mom's side mom passed away n i had these kind of weird feelings n also wen my dearest pet died on da day n these feeling came 2 me n wen i pop n look d d cage n saw them lying there dead~
how 2 make my heart now become a stone tat really totally numb as i had promised them tat i'll neva contact them or sms them or even talk about her as they also wan me out of her life but i couldn't do it cuz sum how i also dunno but i really hope tat i can jus forget her n vanish her from my memory but i jus can't do it~
sigh~
i really need 2 let it be sang by beatles~ :`(

ah,wat a tiring day~

2day was 1 of my tiring day as i need 2 settle ytd's car which i din't get 2 finish up causing my dear fren couldn't get more sleep n need 2 come over early in da morning to 9 tim his car n re-set his alignment,then came another fren who come for major servicing change engine oil,gear oil n change fuel filter+engine fushing then while half way raining n another car came 2 do his alignment after i detected his car's front right absorber was leaking ytd n wen 2 claim from da guy whom he bought n finally after finish work i wen dinner wit 1 of my fren then collected another customer's spoiler which got delay-ed from spraying 2nd time due 2 lack of quality of workmanship giving by d guy n wasted my time n money doin double work n OT to my max n really make my whole day very busy n tiring n came back ard 10pm which i hardly do my work n work really hard for my sake 2 relieve my stress n tension as i'm no longer attach cuz normally by tis kinda of time i normally sms chat wit my girl till she falls asleep then i'll play sum on9 games n do sum small chatting till my turn 2 sleep till next day where another day for my journey of life~

suddenly tis song pop out in my mind 2 listen from Jon Bon Jovi - Always

my car satria~

since after broke up from a long term relationship 2yrs 4months 2weeks n 13hrs,i've no longer need 2 worries about my finiancial about all my engagement n saving for my future wit my girl. jus got myself a set of 2nd 14" 5 spoke rims from Enkei which i've been looking for so long n finally 1 day i got 1 wit a very good condition+tip top n original paint~
jus got it install+a set of brand new michelin tires wit it but 2 bad cuz i wanted d pilot preceda series but no longer in production cuz low in demand in da market~ [^,^]v
will upload d pic wen i get a good phone 2 dl all kinds of pics which i normally likes 2 take pics~

my single life~

yeah,since i'm back 2 my single life n do not know wen will i even goin 2 get another loving gf who is willing 2 accept who n wat am i especially 2 of my main weakness point which is 1st of all is my body's backbone was hurt during a riding my fav bike 2 work 8yrs ago 2 work n got bang by tis stupid malay woman came out from d junction without stopping at d double line which causes me a life time injuries n lastly which sum of u may already knew tat i had a nose prob which i also dun even y or wat happen but on my way for my operation discussing how 2 do it wit my insurance agent 2 claim on my medical fees~ i do really hope tat i can able smell n da 1st thing i wan 2 smell all my fav food since my gf has left me otherwise she will b my 1st ever person tat i'm goin 2 catch her n smells her lovely hair+her perfumes as i knows tat she likes perfume very much but jus 2 bad i can't smell how wonderful she is to me~ jus hoping for da day like d song sang by Aaron Kwok - Para Para Sakura :`)

my beloved grandpa~

tis morning wen i woke up,suddenly i remembered n recalled tat it's almost a yr since my grandpa passed away ard mid dec but he fell down at my dad's workshop roadside n fracture his right hip's bone causing him can't walk again. thinking n flashing bak my memory,i can't i spend more time wit him n get wat he wanna eat rather than letting him walk 2 d kopitiam beside my dad's shop than jus kept my self busy wit work n gain more money 2 spend wit my dear during weekends. wen he passed away part of my life wen off n part of da life of Toh's family also wen missing cuz usually he n my grandma always follow my dad's go 2 work at workshop everyday without fail-ed~
thing weren't used 2 b wen he was still wit us as he always make my grandma pissed off cuz he always walk here n there n make himself dirty wit car's stuff as he was so used 2 work very hard 2 support his big family as he got all together 4 sons n 5 daughters,n he came from China wit nothing but had his wife[my grandma] to support ups n down till 2day,my dad,his elder bro n youngest bro owns a very successfull tire shop in old klang road 3 1/2miles where by many regular customer come back for their best alignment n balancing service~
now tat he's gone already 10months,everything seems 2 b so diff especially during nite time after dinner where my grandpa likes 2 talk 2 himself or reading his bible for himselff n my grandma always nag or scold grandpa for making so much noise tat she cannot rest properly in da balcony,sum time they always argue about their passed life during wen they were younger time where i wasn't even existed in2 tis world,since da day wen he gone,my grandma has been crying n weeping over grandpa as she was so attach 2 him more than 65yrs n often said 'tim kai lei hui tu ng tai ngo yat chai chau' which means 'y u wen off also dun bring me along' n often i slept downstair beside her door 2 accompany her. even now out of da blues especially on sun morning often wen i woke up n saw her sitting at balcony wit her tears rolling down n sum times she cried cuz she's still missing over grandpa~
now tat my girl has left me,i got more time 2 spend wit my grandma at home while waiting for my parents 2 come back from church then send her 2 church ard 1.40pm~
jus wanna say thank u to da person who really came for my beloved grandpa's funeral which is my childhood fren wei jun n his gf,ah-fei n his gf n special thanks to my girl who was there wit me during my saddest time wen he passed away cuz i'm da only 1 grandson wasn't there for him wen da day he passed away as my mom ask me 2 stay at home since i work till quite late only come back n come next day~

i jus wanna dedicate tis song for my true fren in life which is a song from Dido - Thank You n Here with me

i must move on~

finally i've made up my mind tat i'll neva goin 2 fall in love again in tis shortest time n it might even take longer time 2 recover than my previous relationship which i had edi so phobia wit it till 3yrs later i had found sum1 who i tot i can really love her n spend time for da rest of life wit her as she can really love me for wat n who am i even thou i'm not a perfect guy wit no sence of smell but only can taste my food n also my back prob which i had an accident 8yrs back ago wen i got an accident which tis stupid malay woman come out from d junction without stopping on d double line n i got a direct hit causing me having a long term of back-bone injuries.
during my most critical time,i'll neva wan 2 rely on other ppl's help wat else my ex-gf's mom hated me so much tat she could said 2 her most precious lil girl tat i stick 2 her bcuz of her money n yet till da day she call-ed it off,i've proven tat i've not cheated her love or d money as she did sub 2 credit card which is for collection purpose n she did 2 told me 2 use it even i got not enuf money to use it. she also said tat i cheated her daughter's money wen i help her change rims n tires to smaller size which is from 14" to 13" due to 2 reasons i do tat cuz wit her stock size 14" came wit da car using cheap tire 'sime tire' n it's so bumpy n uncomfortable 2 sit on n another reason which is she's starting 2 adapting 2 my driving style which brake lesser n start 2 drive faster n reckless like me so i gave her 13" which is much more comfortable n i gave her for free 1 of d best tire which i can get is 'michelin' which is much better grip on da road n better handling then her 14" which i fish-tail b4 during downhill from genting.
i might b a lil hot tempered but i wasn't really given a chance 2 fully change as she's drifting away from me day after day by looking for another guy to console wen ever she's down or sad instead of me,i had told her b4 wen ever i raised my voice,pissed or angry i gave her fully permission 2 hit me,slap me or box me but she choose 2 bite me but so far she only bit me once on my shoulder which my tears nearly came out till then da day v broke up she neva bit me anymore,n there comes guy who is still attach to his gf came in2 my girl's life n try 2 couple wit her n he did couple wit my girl who is also still wit me at da same time.

after v broke up she finally make up her mind b wit tis guy forever n ard 1month+ only he dumped his current gf who was wit him for 2yrs supporting him ups n downs n tis how he respect his gf for wat she had done so much for him?? he even scolded me for not respecting my girl last thurs on 08-10-09 outside of her house n i accepted it cuz i know i deserve it but everything change till i found out da truth which he was playing my back all tis while n i really regret n dispise of him for nagging n scolding me which now who din't respect who 1st ?? tis is wat i call an affair n betrayal of of him which i've once thinking he's a fren who is good 2 me n whom i can trust till wat he did is totally un-acceptable 2 me. neva i tot he's my 3rd party while my ex-gf was his 3rd party causing me n tat girl suffer so much tat she n me nearly got killed in accident~
i here by now will stand still wit my both feet n work my ass out of me n try 2 enjoy myself now to my fullest~
wat i feel now is

THE MOON REPRESENTS MY HEART*YUE LIANG DAI BIAO WO DE XIN

betrayal of 3rd party ppl !!

i couldn't believe myself tat 3rd party has been happening 2 me again deja vu as my ex-gf a.k.a wife 2 b was also a 3rd party in relationship which causes other ppl's relationship 2 broke up whom i knew all of them 2gether which i used 2 call them as good fren~
in da begining i neva suspected anything about 3rd party till 1 day i accidentally met my fren[Charmaine] n talk 2 her for few hrs n realise tat her bf[Isaac] was my 3rd party spanar n took my girl away on sun morning n finally 2day i couldn't believe tat 1 of her ji mui finally admited tat they also support my gf 2 b a 3rd party also!!!
in my life being ruin by 3rd party twice n i can't believe tis time my very own gf soon 2 b my future wife became a 3rd party to another couple!! she hated so much of those 3rd party ppl who ruin's ppl's life n marriage so much n finally now she became 1!!
how stupid am i din't realise it till i've collected all d jig saw puzzle n put them in2 1 complete piece of pic n nearly make me get heart-attack due to my high blood pressure n high cholestrol lvl,how stupid am i did not find out earlier tat they were already planning 2 get 2gether n i cry n weep for nearly a month n i can't eat properly,sleep properly till i lose 4kgs for nothing for da girl of my life who i love her so much all tis yrs of relationship as i've also took her as part of my life n soul till da day i finally found out tat she betray me tis time!! i even got her a ring for our engagement[even thou i know it's cheap 1] b4 i can even propose for engagement 2 her on da 09-09-09 which is a special day for all couples who choose 2 marry!!!

how stupid am i tat i tot had a very nice,pretty,chubby n innocent girl gf who is a 3rd party of another couple!!!

my very 1st time blogging~

It's early mon morning n i still can't sleep bcuz of my recently broke up relationship wit my girl of my life whom already prepare for engagement wit her on 09-09-2009.
well,mayb tat's fate not meant 2gether as another reason tat her parents neva likes me in da 1st place wen they got 2 know tat me n their daughter were serious in relationship starting on 04-04-2007 early morning after a mid nite show wit her on 03-04-2007.
i'm still keeping all my memories n all our pic 2gether both happy n sad time n our relationship lasted till 17th of August 2009 which is 2yrs 4month n 2wks being together wen she called off ard at 1300hrs~
now jus waiting for time 2 heal both my body n my broken heart as it was seriously hard time for me 2 let go especially all our sweet n happy time being 2gether to all places like my fav place 2 chilled up in genting wit my gf then cameron highland,bukit tinggi,melaka n port dickson~

dun really know wat 2 write as i was so bored+flash back wat has happen 2 me n finally i realise tat there was d 3rd party in my relationship~

all i wan 2 thanks to few of my fren who knows tat i got broken up wit my girl ard 2months back n they brought me out for a drink wit their friends+chilled n etc etc~
i'm goin 2 express out my feelings putting a song b4 i log off as music is my life n also my ex-gf also likes music~
tis is 1 of my fav song by MLTR[micheal learns 2 rock]
U took my heart away~