lonely n sad christmas~

it has been such a lonely life after broke up n here i am on myself alone all by myself on a very happy day where ppl hang ard wishing everybody merry christmas n here i am so sad cuz i notice sum thing on my face after removing 20++ stitches on my face n left 1 stitch unremove on my face wen i apply oilment on da wound which d doc gave me wen collect my medical report along which i need to pay extra rm400 for it n early next month need to go back to him to check up n see if i needed d gel for my face which i need to fork up another rm200~ :(

my 2nd major accident after 3yrs~

on 16th wen up genting to collect my room which booked early last month then go back kl on da same time after i've check in cuz i redeem it by points n i get to know tat if i do not check in then i'll get deduct additional points from my genting points. so after i've finish everything ard 2pm then i rush back to kl n drive like how i normally drive downhill,after came down from genting already was in karak highway n din't expect n notice da road was wet cuz i was driving concentrate on da cars in fronts of me n skidded hit a crv then wen inside da drain. not to say tat i'm careless or wat,but weni wen up was bright n hot n wen i come down also no rain but din't know tat karak there did rain a bit happen to b a lil bit slippery.
wen i skidded n hit da crv then goin down in da drain,many of my memories jus flash back n also quikly turn my face to my left wen i saw my windscreen shattered n break off coming towards me.i was really fortunate tat i turn my face otherwise my while face will b having scars but unlucky tat 1 piece of glass wen thru my cheek n come out from my mouth n i bleed a lot from da cheek as da hole was like a 5cent coin on my cheek. then i called for help n get to know tat my panel workshop which i always send my customer's car do not repair Berjaya's insurance claim car due to sum reason so i called my fren to help me n finally she found 1 panel which i can go for it n i called Berjaya's insurance to tow my car,so i've waited for 3hrs n no respon from d tow truck guy then i called again n other guy said tat i did not confirm their service which i did n i was so frustrated n tell them to come n triple confirm tat i wan their service to tow my car. finally d tow-truck guy came after 4 1/2 hrs of waiting for him at da road side n bleeding there till my whole front shirt almost cover by blood then i was surprise tat tis nice guy actually worried about me more than my car which normally they care more about their business than ppl who got in2 accident n came to me n ask me 'hey,u ok tak??' n talk to me w hile b4 he towed my car to gombak n make police report then come back to kl n send mt car to taman sungai besi where d berjaya insurance panel is n my dad was there waiting for me n he was so shock to see my condition as da blood already reach down to my pants. finally after settled everything i was admitted to hospital ard 9.45pm n nagging while in da car n said y am i so stupid n i should have wen to d hospital 1st n jus leave tat damn car away n i told my dad 'it's ok n i can handle it cuz i'm still standing n can talk n walk n settle everything b4 i go to hospital' then wen reach d hospital , many patients,nurse,doc n da receptionist was shock to see me walking in like tat which normally they saw victims like me usually come by ambulance n wheel to d emergency ward while i jus walk in like tat like nothing happen n proceed for x-ray,treatment n surgery on de next day~ was discharge from hospital 2 days later[18/12/09]

wat a busy+tiring day has ended~

on sat 12/12/09 woke up early in da morning wen to work finish up a car which need to change plug valve seal,head gasket,power steering hose+add oil,top up extra ATF,engine oil+oil filter n lastly brought it over to my fren's place to do throttle body cleaning then wen back early to prepare myself for my sis's last day of her single life dinner at my house~
wasn't really enjoying myself there cuz nothing to do there other than walking ard drinking soya bean n chit chat wit sum relatives from father side n most of them was surprise tat my other half has already gone nearly 4months edi n tat makes me so sad to answer them even thou my heart was really sad n broken but yet i keep myself calm n try skiped away from being kept questioning by them n ate my late dinner after everybody arrived,was quite happening as there's a lot of food n i ate sum thing which i've not been eating[as in really eat a lot] for d passed 12yrs due to my allergie towards d seafood especially prawns where i took at least 16-18pcs of it n while eating it,i remembered sum thing which meant to b forgotten. so after my dinner i took my allergie medicine n on9 for a while n wen 2 sleep quite early to prepare for my sis's wedding next morning~

so today 13/12/09 was my sis's big day n since i couldn't get my white tuxedo so i got no choice to wear all black tuxedo for my sis wedding. everybody came n tis time my mom's family came n ask me da same question 'hey handsome,where's ur lovely gf?' n i answered them da same thing like how i answered on d ytd's nite n all my cousins n relative was shock n sad for me cuz she had left me n happily in relationship wit other guy now while in my heart was actually crying edi~ was kinda shocking n surprise to all my relatives cuz she was da only girl they all have seen me being together for such a long time n expected my turn to get marry soon after my sis lo~
after my sis's wedding ceremony,they wen to their new house while i was in da house help out a lil bit to clean up da house a bit then wait for noon to come then wen to d restaurant in jaya 1 for my sis's wedding lunch where both side families all gathered~ was kinda busy in da restaurant cuz directing our family's side table n directing ppl where to seat as we got limited tables due to my dad for his reason to do so~ really had a nice lunch over there n waiting for sis's husband to come as he needs to pass many tables b4 my table n got him a full glass of a mixture Hennessy+chivas as a punnishment from me cuz he broke his promise to give me extra rm00 behind da digit for opening his car door in da morning while i had 1/3 of hennessy+water n drank wit him in 1 shot then later drank few more glasses wit my cousin brothers n my new bro in law's younger bro till i was so nearly drunk but still standing there n moment i reach home n vomitted a lil bit due to extra alcohol which i over took it un-expectedly wen they cheers wit me n straight fall to my bed n slept for few hrs n woke up for my dinner~ guess it's getting very late now n i need to wake up early tmr to finish up sum touch up for da car which i finish ytd~
will post sum pic of me for d whole event in my facebook asap after i get all d pic~
hahahaaaa~

tiring Sun ^,^

wat a tiring day today cuz not customer on call n i decided not to work 2day then wash my glider's cage base after feeding them then got myself ready for d sugar glider's owner gathering at jaya 1 at 11am~
wen reaching was like 11.15am was pretty excited for me cuz it's my 1st time joining back them alone n meeting up sum other new glider members then look ard n see sum pets n walk alone makes me feels so weird cuz i neva really wen places like tis alone but luckily met sum friendly glider's owner n settle down a bit then chit chat a bit then play a bit wit eric's lil chi hua hua name wesley n he so cute n adorable n get snaps sum pic wit him wit my ex-skoolmate which i din't expect to see her there at all but well,we living in da world of internet n links a lot of network where i'll neva expect so much~
later on they have sugar glider introduction talk follow by D.I.Y seasons n too bad i couldn't stay longer cuz my fren n her hubby invited me for movie wit them at mid valley then dinner follow by christmas shopping~ da movie was quite nice n reflects 1 of d guy who was like me who plans everything for his wife but at least he manage to save it while not me but i like da best part which is Trudy undress Shane's pants down at da beach~ XD now waiting for d movie name Avatar , Bodyguards and Assassins & The treasure hunter coming up soon lu~
have not find anything i wan to buy cuz it was a last min shopping n din't bring much of cash as my tuxedo+blazer tat i bought for my ex-gf's ji mui's wedding wasn't completed as i want it to b complete asap but not to sure if i wanna wear it cuz i was thinking of white tuxedo+blaser for my elder sis as she's da 1st girl in Toh's big n eldest in da family is getting marry very very soon n d black 1 for my fren's wedding~
my dad has been spending quite a lot for d preparation cuz he was so happy after so long only finally my sis is settling down wit a new family n as for me life has been interesting as i meeting more old long lost friends from skool n bla bla except jus lost another dear fren as she for her own reason which i'm not to happy about cuz i dun like to lose any1 who i've known them for so long~


tis is 1 of my fav oldies song from Air Supply - Goodbye

wat a day these few days~

on Sun[29/11/09] morning woke like any other day as well clean up myself then feed n play a bit wit my pet glider then go down as usual on9 a while b4 get ready to go work but to my surprise tat my sis's husband[very very soon] came wit his bro n 'sung lai' about 160 boxes then took sum family pic together after so many yrs i did not took much of family pic as she's getting married n moving out soon~
so i stay at home n other relative also come by n chit chat bla bla bla,then later on everybody wen out n i got nothing to n or goin anywhere so i took out my pet's cage n wash it then stay at home thru out da whole day on9 as usual msn,youtube,forums n on9 facebook game lo~
nothing special much on tat day but i do wish find sum1 out or go out by myself to sunway piramid n ice-skating alone by myself there~

then on Mon[1/12/09]woke up early in da morning settle everything then go down to shop to work a while as i got a fren got a puncture on his tire n bring 1 customer which her car got bang about two weeks ago to d panel workshop to proceed to claim 3rd party's insurance if not otherwise have to claim her own insurance lo~
after settle then i sent her back to her work place at TPM where 1 of my ex-company was there b4 during 2001 wen i work for this IT company called MIMOS n i rush back home as my fren edi waited for me 1hr n i was totally very late due to all my timing wen out thanks to my wrong calculation timing n reach genting 1hr late~
anyway i did enjoyed myself there wit my fren n sum new frens n for my 1st time goin genting theme park after so long which i wanted to go in wit my ex-gf last time for 2 1/2 yrs but everytime wen i go up wit her but neva got da chance to go in due to bad weather so ended up walk ard n took sum pics as memories even thou a lil bit of disapponted wit da game called cork screw cuz ard 11yrs back there's a roller coaster name 'triple looper' where it faster n more feel than cork screw which i expected it to b faster wit more feelings~
then later walk ard n play wit few more other games+lunch+posing sum pics n go back kl n resume my working day on da next day like any other working days lu~
i jus wanna say 'thank you' to vincent[my driver],collin chew[both collin n vincent from lowyat] n her two new fren which i get to know them name roy lim n jen chua to make tis trip sucessfull even thou i was late :)


The Pussycat Dolls - Jai Ho (You Are My Destiny)

yay,finally got my car fix-ed~

yeah,got car's air-cond compressor fixed n got air-cond edi after long wait for my uncle to get me a special unit of air-cond compressor from suzuki vitara but very hard to get so ended up get back my original size which not very cold during super hot day le,at so right timing my fren jus got back from singapore n he was free to fix for me but wit 1 condition which i need to do it myself wit his assistant n assisting lo~
at da same time 2day day was d actual day where my grandpa passed away le~
it's kinda happy n sad day for me as i also learn sum new stuff[learning how 2 fix air-cond if i got da time lo] :)
at da same time i got their wedding dinner invitation which is 26/12/2009 where my elder sis finally getting marry on da same month but earlier on 12/12/2009 ler~ :)

2day is my sad n lonely day~

y issit sad n lonely cuz 2day is my grandpa passed away n time really flies cuz he was gone last yr n within a yr i lost my very special girl in my life as well~
woke up early in da morning 2day feed my pets n take my shower preparing myself n dress up as waiting fo da rest of da family to gather at my house then off we go n start journey to nilai memorial park to visit my dearest grandpa who passed away on 23/11/2008 n reach there ard 30mins time cuz d trafic was smooth n as we all gather my grandma keep weeping n say many nonsence n make my dad a bit fed up n say to her 'our life will come wen God thinks it is time n we shall all go on 1 day wen it comes'
then later wen for our very late breakfast ard Kuchai Lama for dim sum n later after finish they wan to visit my very 1st younger cousin bro who passed away ard 10days after birth due to sum health prob which i did not go n wen home after tat.
can't really bear da feeling being alone in da house so i drove out n wen over my fren's house n watch tv for few hrs b4 i wen home for my dinner wit my family...
how do i wish tat i still have my girl to keep me accompany so tat i won't b alone but due to many issue tat she left me,so i've to b strong n stand up again for myself n try to keep myself busy as usual~
had jus book a room in genting highland next month n will b staying 1 nite from 16 to 17 of Dec 2009 at first world hotel,wish tat my fren will b free to accompany me on tat day cuz i've been wanting to go tod theme park for a very very long time but everytime wen i wen up there wit my girl got no chance cuz it rains so can't go n play,hopefully if nothing happen again i shall wen up there a gain to celebrate new yr eve countdown by myself since i am left alone being single life again after wasted 2 1/2yrs of relationship down to d drain~
now edi 1.46am n another 1hr n 40mins will b exactly 1yr wen my grandpa passed away~ :(

lonely in da house~

felt so lonely at home while playing wit on9 games as usual n a lil bit of chatting wit sum new frens on9~
it's has been a while since my last post as quite busy wit my career + renovating my store-room in da shop n i D.I.Y a bit making a small bridge so tat i dun have to lift up d jack into store-room while i can pull it in like other side of shop~
wat most happy in my life is tat i get to see d Leonid Meteor Shower early ytd morning 18/11/09 ard 5a.m in da morning. my very 1st meteor shower i saw was at 5.09am follow by next 1 which is 5.15am then 5.16am n lastly 5.21am,wanted to see another 1 so tat i can make total of 5 wishes all together but i was too tired keep on looking to d sky~
jus wish have more customer each day 2 keep myself more busy than keep thinking things tat i should not think but wat can i do n my grandpa's anniversary is coming but will n goin to visit him tis Sun n tis yr will b a very diff christmas n new year eve countdown as i'll b alone all by myself home alone~ :`(


ABBA - Mamma Mia
ABBA - S.O.S

time really flies ^,^

so fast edi fri de 13~
has finally finish doin up my store-room n need 2 make sum changes wen got time so tat i can have na upper deck for my store-room which kinda high also n mean time my other smaller store-room in da shop has been renovating almost done n waiting for them finsh d cement floor to tiles floor~
at mean time i'm getting more n more customer from week to week n sum of my dad's customers was surprise to sees me there cuz i was m.i.a there for 2yrs++ n ask me where i'm working now n etc etc then other than tat got sum bad news for my friends who recently had major accident n need 2 help them settle their car as 1 of de car was towed away to another workshop panel which he was not really confident n not familiar wit kl so i'll jus help him out to take a look on his car from time to time while another case a girl can consider hit n run n help her 2 make a report to claim since she was a fren from a forumer who introduce her 2 me 2 fix her car but seems things doesn't come as wat it was suppost to b cuz tat stupid person who hit her actually gave her his false num n his ex-company's name card which he dun work there anymore,at same time she wasn't familiar wit kl as she was a melaka ppl so i jus offered 2 help her out since i was a bit free by taking her to make police report n claim d other party's insurance n it'll take sum time as her case a bit complicated as both drivers can say wrong lane but me n my workshop will try our best to help her as tis irresponsible driver really a bad guy.so for those ppl who read my blog pls becarefull wen being hit pls dun b panic n remember to jot down every info tat u can get n especially taking n car's num plate must always get it from d roadtax's sticker cuz who knows sum ppl might put on a fake num~
then 2day was kinda tired cuz woke too early n feed my gliders then later wen down to workshop where my tis regular customer finally came to me to change d tires after getting many good reviews from forums then after tat finish edi,i wen over to kelana jaya 2 get a set of myvi's rim n install d old tires tat i din't get 2 sell after 1yr++ in my store-room n install back to my ex-gf's car as i can't stand ppl saying me cheating her daughter's money n etc etc n also got nagged by my fren for bein so stupid do so much things for her n her family neva like or appreciate me as i care for for her n her safety so much tat i actually downsize her kelisa's 14" to 13" cuz to get good tires is very expensive n she's adapting to my driving style n dented extra 2 more rims n i even fish-tail once coming down from genting n i downsize for her to 13" rims+tires[michelin xm1 tires which neva fails me n gives her extra comfort n more gripped on da road] for free n 1st thing i get 2 hear is from her mom says i cheated her by selling her junk rims for only rm400 n rims n tires tat i got for her was like market price already rm600 liao~
by time finish removing d tires n everything n wen down to times square n found her car in da carpark n start my work there n nearly got caught by few policeman ard tat area having their high tea,but after they saw i was upgrading her car's rim n not meant to steal so they jus ignore me n continue their chit chatting +high tea~
was quite lucky as i get to avoid d jam as it was approaching to 5.15pm n spped off back to shop n unload everything n goes home n took a nap~
then woke up ard 9pm n saw her missed call n left me a message,then took my shower n go pasar malam as usual look for aunty 2 change notes n coins n at same time i told her tat her son wen is free bring back his caldina to re-spray his rear bumper as d job wasn't done nicely n wen back home on9~ :)
it's time for me 2 publish my post now n sleep early cuz tmr need 2 wake up very early as got a customer coming all da way from klang to do up his alignment wit me at 8am n also need 2 feed + play wit my pair of gliders n hope won't get bitten up again by my newly adopted lil girl name Aki from d glider forum~ :)
dun really feel good cuz i did it without telling tat i came 2 change her rims without her permission hope tat she can forgive me as her mom actually hinted me tat she dun like d 13"


Bryan Adams - Please Forgive Me~

Another day has passed~

it's raining again but sum how i'm not moody like usual n jus took my dinner+my fav soup boil by my mom n make another cup of hot coffee 2 enjoy myself a while waiting for my hair 2 dry,so at mean time nothing better to do n here am i writing another day's interesting life~
early tis morning i wen to work ard 9am as i got 3 customers to do up n it's a record to me as i neva had so many car on weekdays as normally on Sat only will have 2-3 or sum times even 4 cars. since i was early n customer not yet reach n got a bit of time so i take tis chance 2 continue working on tat stupid hole in my store room by sealing it wit additional nails 2 secure it more permenantly till my very 1st loyal toyota corolla customer from serdang came upgrade n change a set of new tires wit a set of new nuts for his ride,now i'll b waiting for him 2 come back next week for his engine oil change but due to not enuf time so i ask him come back wen he's free even thou he can have his engine oil change 700km earlier but bcuz i got another customer jus came all da way from bukit jelutong to do up his car,since he's 1 of my another loyal customer been coming to me already nearly 2yrs i adjust his handbrake a lil bit tighter for free even thou he came jus for alignment service,jus about to finish then my last customer introduce by my new fren from BLM's club member who is so good getting me customer 1 after another 1 came to me ard 1pm to install lowering spring n do up proper alignment which i'll regret in future as i'll not able to smoke n out run them during high speed cornering lo,but wat can i do?? since it's a request by them then i'll do my best for them as it's my job 2 make them happy for wat they'll pay for my good n reasonable service lo~ so after finally settle my last car n i took da car for a test drive wit da owner n his fren sitting behind me n tackle a corner which i alway use to do it n he was kinda happy wit it cuz he's car neva get to perform n tackle those corner wit tat kinda of speed b4 n i'll hope tat he'll get used to d new setting b4 pushing car car to it's limit n total cost for his wallet damage was rm205 then i cincai jus give him a lil bit discount n make it round up to rm200 since he's quite leng zai n can wait me doin up his car for few hrs without rushing me at all which not many customer can wait other than 1 customer from seremban while was there whole day looking at me doin up his precious car~ XD
now sitting here really bored n nothing 2 do while waiting for my on9 game's energy n stamina to regenerate n my coffee also almost finish edi n my hair still not completely dry yet as i wanna sleep early 2nite n wake up early for another fresh new day tmr as i'm not sure if i got any cars to do but definately will do up my store-room to put up my equipment n other stuff le~ ^,^

ah,Sun morning 10am~

had been busy these days really working out n finally i can work on Sun liao as my store-room finally seal up d stupid hole wit ard 2 1/2ft n 1ft wide zink plank~
was kinda lazy way but at same time i dun wan 2 messed up wit cement patching it up nicely which will much costly for me to do it so use a simple n cheaper alternative to do it XD
since edi done my store-room,now will try double secure it wit another pad lock so tat i can put additional usefull items tat i can use on Sun to work wit appointment as will b4 open officially by next month working on Mon-Sat 9am-6pm n on Sun 9am-12.30pm only~
can't do anything much nowadays as i've not much of friends so only options is to work n work n try 2 4get everything tat had happen even thou i know tat i cannot hide my feelings tat i'm still loving her as she was my longest girl in relationship n also d closest 1 had ever being wit me,since already broke up n now it's time 2 for me to seal up my heart wit bricks wit extra protection so tat i'll neva so easily fall in love again as last 1 really hurts me a lot tat in my life i've cried for her 3times+also beg her 2 b wit me forever during early tis yr wen we had a small arguement/mis-understanding wit each other~
now tat my heart is so emptied n no longer had her in my life to fill my happiness in life as she had already move on wit her life very quikely n also had a nicer bf in terms of body n also in career,at least she dun have 2 complaint tat i'm skinny to hug anymore as her new bf got a bit more muscular body n also tummy for her 2 hug nicely~
i like tis pic a lot cuz it ws 1 of my happiest time in my life b4 we broke up~






dunno y early in da morning edi so emo-ing while almost goin to work as my customer coming ard 11am but also kinda happy as b4 opening edi got 1 customer coming for my nice quality service~

my latest interesting song sang by taylor swift - You Belong With Me~

ah,time really flies~

omg,finally it's fri morning n nothing 2 do so jus stay in d house for a while write sum thing in here b4 i goes 2 work~
tis few day was kinda interesting day for me as i met two of my ex-gfs which i neva expect in life tat i'll in touch wit them again as most of my ex-gfs totally ignore+deleted me from their life+memories~
on tuesday met 1 of them for dinner at leisure mall cheras n dine in at Wong Kok then have sum chit chat talk about how our life has been up to then finish edi wen home n i wen out meet another fren for trying a product for my health~
then on wed,i met my other ex-gf who is married recently on Sept wit her husband n another fren[very leng zai Harry Meng ^,^ ] for a movie name 'Ninja' n we reach a bit earlier so wen starbucks for a short drink wit my all time fav ice grande vanilla latte wit less ice n sit there chat wit their fren who also jus broke up recently ard same time wit me n i can sees tat he's as hurt like me but well,jus hope time heal both of us~
n ytd out suddenly i got a call from my ex-gf n she ask me out dinner wit her husband+few of his fren[few of them from work station] including harry meng then straight go yam cha as usual talk cock sing song b bla bla bla even thou my planning 2 try drag them go yam cha at genting but in d end jus ard sri petaling area but it's ok~
then by time reach home do sum small clean up then take my 2nd round dinner[fried rice+my fav nuggets] which my mom edi cook for me then sit at sofa n watch a english movie series called [Airwolf] n it's kinda old n outdated but it's a nice 1~
later after finish my coffee then will go spare part shop n buy a plank 2 cover up d hole on my store room as i can't find any place ard my area for sum siemen 2 patch up tat hole wit bricks s my dad goin 2 renovate my other small store-room tat he gave me few months ago so no time 2 look ard n jus goin 2 chunk all my stuff in2 it n clean up later lo~ hahahahaa~

jus dunno y i jus feel like to listen tis song recently by Jacky chan - endless love~

lunch time~

was so tired ytd after whole day of working as in da morning while washing my car[neva wash it even once since broke up] then suddenly i got a call from my dad asking me 2 go 2 da shop as he got a car[proton saga] for me 2 change front n back absorbers+rubber bush mounting+engine oil change then later on came another car[nissan sentra] wanna change absorbers also since he was my dad's fren+also a regular customer n i did it~ was kinda busy n work out of my damn ass out but at least 1st day of work not bad n edi got 2 cars in sales liao,then later b4 i came back 1 of my ex-coll came n brought over his fren's car for me 2 service all da way from sungai buluh then by time finish liao,then i wen home change cloths n straight go out meet my fren for dinner n lil i know tat i was trapped by him n ask me join MLM n i was like =_=" should have known y he so good wanna bring me go for dinner in a 6 happiness seafood restaurant where in pandan perdana so near 2 my ex-gf's company[HSL] really regret for not asking for more info y he get so many free dinner over there n i'm so trapped in2 it wit stomach upset n he keep on ask me 2 join+telling me tat he's also wanna go off liao without thinking tat d restaurant is closing+i need 2 spend ard 30-40mins in da toilet~ then came home late n took my supper a.k.a[dinner] as i 4got 2 tell my mom not 2 cook for me.
so 2day i wen dowan 2 shop 2 clear my junk+ also finally got free time 2 clean+wash my store-room n also found out there's a big hole on da wall which i planned 2 seal it to protect it from small animal/insects go in n do business in there n my uncle ask me dun be stupid for doin stupid+extra work for ppl,but wat can i do as i wan my work place a.k.a work station 2 b clean,neat+also tidy mah~ now waiting for tenant tmr morning 2 ask him if it's ok for me 2 knock da wall to proper shape 2 seal it up wit new bricks or jus listen 2 my uncle buy a piece of wood n jus seal it which i see not really nice lo~ :(


911 - All I Want is You~

7.28pm~

it has been 2weeks since i've start my new life as single again~
but dun feel kinda used 2 it as i've been really attach to her too long n too close till i still feel kinda weird n funny n things seems passed jus like ytd/last week only~
kinda emo-ing 2day wen thunder strike+raining later makes me even feel bad as i'm so used 2 manja a bit during time wen in relationship wit her as now all i got n have done 2day was jus eat,sleep[nap] n sitting on9 playing few games at 1 shot+listening to youtube n did sum chatting a bit wit a fren n forumer n also a long lost contact skoolmate who i used 2 chase her younger sis during high skool time but fail-ed jor~
but did enjoy a bit meeting sum old fren from high skool time thru facebook isn't tat bad anyway as it link to many of my old skool fren n adding them 1 by 1 n chat wit them if i got d chance to lo~
wasn't really feel tat good 2day n i'm suppose 2 go out n b happy+enjoy myself but instead of it i stay back at home n on9 since my back was pain due to wat happen 2 me ytd n i hope by tmr i'll b much better cuz i need 2 wash n clean up my store-room which i'm suppost 2 do it on last Sat but i got no time time 2 do it n store my goodies in it n my dad can start operating renovate my other store-room also part of it guest's waiting room also~
wat makes me so emo+sad+angry due to last time wen i met an accident nearby my house at d T-junction where tis stupid malay woman came out from tat junction without stopping n i got a direct hit from her as i was riding my fav racing bike to work n cross d T-junction for d passed 5yrs to work+help out my dad in workshop n she claim tat she din't see on coming car coming n so she din't wanna stop at d junction where there's double line on it where everyone suppose to stop d car n look for any on coming cars,motorcycles or even bicycles n my guess tat she din't get 2 see me coming n 'paaannngg' there's goes me thrown up from my bike ard 3-4feet high n fall direct to da ground on my backbone causing me a lifetime pain on my back which will neva fully recover even thou i do wish it'll go away 1day n i can live my life jus like any other youngster being active in sport especially basketball+ice-skating n other hardcore sports which i love to do it~
i really regret on tat time for not reporting to d police n also i can actually claim a big ammount from her insurance by sue-ing her but tat time i was still young n knows nothing about d law on da road much so i agreed wit her tat i'll look for her later wen i go down 2 my dad's workshop n tell them wat happen then go hospital wit her which i was stupid enuf not 2 go on da spot cuz tat time i was blur blur n she pretend not to know me or wat happen in tat morning wen i look for her in da afternoon where her office jus right opposite of taman desa's hospital n she change car wit 1 of her fren to make me can't recognise n play me dumb ass~
she was unlucky enuf tat i remember wat car tat she's driving,car num plate n most important thing is da mark from my bicycle where she hit me as later on i sabotaj her car 9 9 till not many ppl will wanna know wat i'm capable of doin on tat time n finally i set fire n burn off her car after i statified torturing her wit flat tires[not repair-able] n also loosen up all 16nuts on her car leaving da car move without even 2-3meters n tires fall off from d car,now tat she edi no longer work in tat company cuz of da trouble n prob tat she brought over to d company which i also burn down her fren's car who help try 2 cover up d evidence of tat day even thou i'm happy on tat time how i torture her but still can't repay wat she had make me into semi-half old man body age 60yrs old++ while tat time i was jus about to turn 21yrs old in 2weeks time~


Nickelback - How you remind me~
MLTR - Breaking my heart~

wat a sad day~

was working 2day doin up a customer's car which i din't get 2 finish last week due to insufficient time n continue 2 upgrade his ride+a lil complaint from him as da lowering spring he bought it n brought it over 2 my 2 install+a lil bit of modicafation 2 increase his car's height all da way from seremban n i'm so honoured tat finally i got a customer who willing 2 travel so far jus 2 look for me as i'm building my carrier thru on9 as he got good feedbacks from other members who has done their car wit me so far~
i was so happy working on his car till i near clamped off my left thumb while lowering da jack a lil 2 fast n i was adjusting d 'stand' for da car to sit on it properly so i can have lie down safely while underneath da car while taking off da screw securing d absorber to release da spring so i can change to his after-market lowering spring+1 inch thicker rubber mounting to make his ride not too low like last week i need to take off another time due to in proper rubber mounting given by spare part shop which i nearly lose it like last yr i had an accident while learning new thread as a 'makat lou[mudguard]' which my thumb accidentally wen into da fan which was spinning at d top speed n i was really lucky to escape it from losing my thumb wit two bad cuts[3cm n 2cm] on it n took 9 stitches 2 sew back da opened wound on my thumb n tis time my thumb got stuck in between d stand n da car n i was very lucky as i got put extra rubber mat n my thumb was jus underneath n stuck on it on da stand 2 protect da edge from getting dent like other tire shop jus jack up d car like tat n sum times wen u look properly u'll see da dent on da side,otherwise if not bcuz of tis rubber mat,i dun think i can b here writting another page of my dairy as i'll b hospitalize for losing my left thumb :`(
then 2nd thing happen wen about finish my last customer car i slipped n fell straight on d ground n hurt my backbone n luckily da ground was flat if not it'll b worst result tat i might not able 2 stand up to finish his car. luckily was a soft fall n da pain wasn't tat bad but took sum pain-killer 2 kill sum pain then wen over cheras look for my fren n got myself a new pad lock to secure my new store-room at my dad's new shop as for now n will sleep early later 2nite after writing tis page n play wit my son later n no feeling so well,to continue my game later~
wishing i can turn back d time wen i still had my girl wit me cuz i missed her care n her touch to makes me feels so much better even thou tat time i got da bad cut on my thumb wasn't tat bad cuz she was there for me but as for now only my lil boy is all i have now~ :(



MLTR - The Actor

30th October 09, 10:37pm

so happy wen i saw my luck was 100% on 2day morning n wen off 2 work happily as i few things 2 do wen i reach d shop,1st thing of all which i gave a call 2 our main supplier who v always get d local's tire+other imported tires[execpt michelin as my dad's shop has all d tires sizes tat i needed was there] was 2 my horror wen d girl answer me no stock n i was like 'oh,shit' in my heart then continue call other supplier 2 get d specific tire tat i needed it fix to 1 of my ex-gf's car which her husband accidentally hit a pothole n damage d tires quite badly till i can't repair it n i finally found 1 supplier got stock n his place is in ard taman mayang n i drove all da way 2 collect d tire as they dun send d tire to me jus 1 pcs as many ppl who work in business line of cuz won't make a lost profit by petrol+labour for d delivery guy. after done edi,she ask me 2 come collect her can n fix d new tire in+then also do up alignment balacing for her as well s i can see tat both husband n wife has been working hard 2 earn more cash for better future n for their kids n no time 2 dropby my place 2 do a small job which took ard 34mins 2 get da job done as i gave her car a new alignment setting as i can feel for her other running tires's thread shows me tat she has been taking corners+driving aggressively jus like my last ex-gf n i set it to a lil bit aggressive driving style so tat her tires will wear out evenly.
after my job done n while waiting for her 2 collect her car i wen took a my dad's 1 1/3foot clam 2 clam a pad lock which has been securing tat store-room like ard got at least 10yrs++ as i can c all da junks inside rotten up wit termites,cockroaches n lizards n i was like 'omg~!!!!' then no choice also n i have 2 bear wit those stuff which i nearly fainted sees-ing those ugly things running ard n took me 1hr 2 clean every junk out n goin 2 wash it on next day morning as was getting late edi,then wen home wash myself up a bit then wait-ed for her 2 come collect her car then he ask me 2 join her for dinner wit her husband n his lil sis in OUG then head back home n get my shower n continue my usual stuff playing on9 games in fb,chatting,blogging n listening to music in youtube then play wit my lil son n goes 2 sleep~ :)


MLTR - I'm Gonna Be Around~



p/s:sorry for late posting it up as i fall asleep after playing wit my lil boy in my room~ :p

29th october 2009 , 9.35pm

y am i sad but yet happy tis few days which i also couldn't understand myself 2~
partly happy 2day cuz my uncle gave me another good news which i can another extra store-room located behind d new shop as it's has been a yr since my dad's company rented it n i found tat nobody is using so i ask him last week about it then my uncle said will ask d tenant for d key,unfortunately d tenant loses d key but they told my uncle tat i can cut d old pad lock n use it n 1st thing in mind is to use it 2 store all my scrap items which i can sell them+i also at same time i can store up my used engine oil 2 sell it~
n not forgetting tat it's quite big n i can store a jack in it so tat i can use it on sun which my dad's shop is totally close n i work on tat particular as i got no where 2 go or do anything since i'm edi single n better use up my free time to do up car repair than jus sitting in da house rotting away+getting nag by my parent for sitting almost 24/7 in front of my pc on9 playing wit on9 games in facebook n at same time surfing ard looking for customer as usual 2 expand my income n there's many things tat i wanna do in life n have been missing it so much which last time i jus use my com for playing on9 games n nothing much till da day wen i got myself so lucky 2 have a lovely gf~


a song for her if ever get a chance 2 listen 2 it from taylor swift[T.S.] - LOVE SONG n You BELONG WIT ME


sad part is i no longer do things where i used 2 b as i always try my very best 2 b on her side even thou i'm far apart from her as her parent's dun like me look for her everyday,guess tat i need 2 get myself a life now at least helping out sum ppl who is in really need[morally support la] 2 keep myself busy at all times as i dun like myself being 2 free n nothing better 2 to~


Nickelback - Gotta Be Somebody~

wen sadness n happiness colides , 9.55pm

within this few months of everything which happens 2 me as most of it already written on d previous post which is part of my sadness of my life which already happen n i begins 2 start a new life/leaf,2day was also a good news for me wen i wen 2 work after see-ing doc for my 2nd degree of gastric due 2 my very improper meals which i took per day was really bad as i normally eat at least 3-5meals per day n sum of my close fren n girl of my life other than my parent know how much i ate per day each day to sustain n maintain my body weight n not 2 let it drop n also once i promise my girl tat i'll take extra meals 2 gain more weight as she always said i'm so skinny n not nice 2 hug where i've drop from nearly 54.3kg drop straight to nearly 50kgs jus in 3weeks after broke up as meals tat i took per day was ard 1/5 of my total meals per day n 1 of my fren who owns a francise arisan which selling fried chick near my house at pasar malam every fri nite so shock 2 c me become so thin till she can see my veins on my arms pop out so visible n ask me wat happen n i told her no appetite 2 eat dute 2 my broke up relationship n i'm now recovering from gastric n fever[got it tis morning] n hopefully i can re-gain back those weights tat i've lost asap cuz i do not wan 2 let other ppl sees me like a drug addict as i edi look very skinny liao.
wat makes me happy 2day is wen i reach my dad's shop,my dad told me 2 clean up my lil stor-room tat they gave me use last time 2 store all my stuff especially those engine oil,used engine oil n etc etc which i've put there for d pass few months n tot they wanna re-furbish da place 2 become customer's waiting room n ask me 2 move everthing out n 1st thing in my mind which i tot my dad is asking me 2 move away then few mins later i ask my dad y they wanna make a room for customer then he also said will make a small room for me 2 store my stuff n equiment n i was so shock n also happy cuz my dad allows me cantinue 2 use his place n usual place where i always do up my customer's car till 1 day i got enuf money 2 open up my own shop,i'm so happy tat finally after 2yrs of my very hardship working by myself n i'm able 2 get a place from my dad wen he gave me a green light as he n both my uncles can c tat most of my customers tat i've did all came back for my cheap[sum time got ppl also complaint expensive] service but most important is my quality of workmanship is good n statisfy my customers but i still will neva rely on him n get customer from him but everyday i'll always continue look for my own customer thru on9 jus like wat i've did for d pass 3yrs ago after many yrs of working for other ppl n gaining expirience n now i can do up many task like performing minor,major service on a car,change absorbers,brake pads,petrol filter,gasket n knock on minor bodyworks on da car+spray except overhaul a car because it needs a proper space 2 do it n i do not wan 2 take da risk 2 lose any small spare part which will cause me 2 lose money later+headache later. i'm very happy so far for my dad n uncles supporting me a small place without charging me any rental but of cuz wen i got no work i'll need 2 help them up since i got a free space. but at da same time i'm also sad cuz i couldn't share tis happy news wit her as i no longer need 2 suffer so much from finiancial prob anymore but all she got from me was sadness which i really felt sum times tat i'm really useless 2 her as i'm not highly educated ppl n tat's y i need 2 work from very bottom n also mayb she came wrong time in2 my life 2 1/2yrs earlier where i was jus starting my own career of my own~
another happy news for me tat i'll getting myself a glider[not sure from who] 2 keep myself accompany during all my free times n loneliness as for now my heart will shut it wit a big rock n will b waiting for da right n mighty 1 2 set my heart free wen it heals from d broken heart which shattered 2 pieces 1 day mayb in ard few months or few yrs time which i also dunno wen will it heals but i'm still picking up pieces of my heart n try 2 mend it back n try 2 forget her wat we have wen thru ups n downs 2gether 2 1/2yrs back ago which is totally impossible as she was 2 attach 2 me in my life~


Backstreet Boys - Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely~
Backstreet Boys - Quit playing games with my heart~
Backstreet Boys - Memories~
Backstreet Boys- Shape Of My Heart~
Backstreet Boys - Drowning (Wet Version)
Backstreet Boys - the one~
Backstreet Boys - Larger Than Life~
Backstreet Boys - as long as u love me

9.01am,6th's day after wat happen~

wake up late 2day i feel so cold n numb over my body n felt my head so hot n notice got fever over nite cuz had been cying whole nite from da moment i brought back my daughter's[Minnie] emptied cage+sum her accessories tat she make[D.I.Y] n i can tell u tat she's good wit it!! but jus can't imagine tat she also return me sum other things tat i dun expect 2 c at all but she did it n makes me really sad as it was bought it for her specially but hardest of all is da empty cage without my lil daughter in it as i neva got da chance 2 c her again in my whole life n espcially how heart broken is my heart which i couldn't c her n play wit her 1 last time b4 my girl broke up wit me till da day she's ran away from my girl making both of us so sad cuz she was part of our life being our lil princess as wen i got her tat time,she loves 2 climb on me jus 2 poo-ed n urine on me b4 she goes back 2 my girl n how lil i know tat it's her habit 2 make me becoming her toilet. i still remember da day wen she jump-ed off from me on da bridge into da big drain in taman connought's pasar malam n me n my girl nearly lose hope for losing her as u all should know how big is tat freaking drain can even fit a Hummer's width n i felt so guilty for taking her out but surprisingly wen i called few times n look for her n she responded 2 my call n come 2 my wit whole body soak wit those drain water n guess wat?? i jus took my shower n there she climb on my back of my neck n start 2 cuddle herself n rest on me n i could c how relieved is my girl wit her tears nearly roll out wen v finally got our daughter back n finally on 19/10/09 is da day where is all god's fate tat she's finally gone for good da rest of our life while makes me cried like wen my dog passed away last time~
mayb it was a right choice tat she choose 2 sell off d cage but i refuse it n now my turn 2 b emotional,sigh~

a song from my heart by all time fav boy band backstreet boys - Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely

22nd October 2009,Thursday 2.28pm~

really dunno wat 2 write n din't go 2 work 2day due 2 my gastric become worst n really no choice 2 see doc cuz i've promise da girl of my life 2 take good care of myself even thou i really hate 2 see doc n eat their bitter medicine cuz i really need 2 stand by my own feet now as i got no ppl 2 fully support me.
at da same time i get 2 talk a bit wit her 2day due of my stupidness act tat cause so many things become more complicated tat i've make her in position n at da same time she finally gave up hope on our beloved daughter minnie[sugar glider] which v all dunno if she still alive or not as it's has been 4 days since she's missing n i really tot of asking 1 of our fren 2 help her retrieve her 2 come back by putting another glider in her cage 2 gave a nature's call even thou da chances if very small but at least i really wish 2 try but since she really gave up n i got no choice 2 gave up also cuz for all da glider's lover knows tat glider can't survive on their own as they're not a wild glider which they can take care of themself even 2 survive longer~
i really missed my daughter[Minnie] n no1 knows how sad am i wen my pet dog passed away wen i was form5 tat time due 2 his old age n he has been my best companion n fren even thou he once betray me by not eating da ham i gave 2 him n my mom force me 2 ate it cuz i wasted her food n tat day i wen skool as usual n i was very uneasy cuz i neva expect tat my dad called a vet 2 come 2 our house n put my best fren 2 sleep forever due to his old age[human age 12yrs old] n burried him outside out of our house n i burst out n cried for 2weeks mourning for him as i could remember wen my dad 1st got him back from a pet shop wen he's ard 2-3months old i was very scare of him n i tried ran away from him n he chase me n make me tripped over n fell down n broke 1 of my tooth n make me angry stand up n took my sandal 2 throw at him to shoo him off from me,but day passed so quikely my my feeling of hate-ing him for make me broke my tooth out last time turn in love companion wen ever i'm sad everytime wen i was noti n get scolded from my parent n my dog was da only 1 there for me even thou v neva understand each out but but he's always there for me wen i need him so much n badly. as so far,my dog n sugar glider will b my pet of my of life n memory being 2gether wen they're still alive wit me~
at da same time,i've finally got last piece of puzzle from my ex-gf n i do really wish wat she told me was true n it clears my mind n head tat she's not a 3rd party as she knews how it feels 2 b 1 n tat's y she waited for tis guy 2 broke up b4 they couple up 2gether,now all wat i can do is 2 wish them all da best in life 2gether n happy 2gether as i TOH CHEE ANN no longer can give her wat she really needs in life n instead i gave her d opposite n i wanna say 'thank u' her has been very supporting gf 2 me during my hardest time in my life being 2gether wit her~
tis is a song for them by Tina Tuner - simply the best


n a song for myself sang by Enya - only time tat can heal my heart,forgive myself,n love da next person who will b wit me n cherish n make her happier in future~
n i'm sorry 2 all da ppl tat i've hurt tis while for 2 1/2yrs n i wan 2 appologise sorry,blame on me

3rd day after my ex's lil girl missing~

it has been 3rd day since our beloved sugar glider[Minnie] missing n i'm still hoping tat she'll come back 2 my ex as she care n love minnie so much tat she cried for 2 nites in a row looking at d empty cage without her baby n her life goin 2 change soon if minnie doesn't come back 2 her another 1-2days time at tis moment i total understand wat is her feelings now but wat can i do other than jus sitting here everyday b4 n after work waiting for her latest news update n do nothing other than jus wishing everything will go fine again like usual days n routine for her make food every nite n morning n nite n also play wit her every night for 2hrs~
here's how a glider[not Minnie] looks like if u all dunno wat it is


dedicating a song for my ex-gf sang by enya - only time~

n i love my sugar glider[Minnie] very much even thou she's no long wit me anymore n i'll alway remember u in my heart~

my 3rd day after being single~

jus reach home n saw my ex-gf's msn title tat my lil precious sugar glider[Minnie] had been missing due 2 her carelessness n falls asleep leaving her room's window open n our noti lil girl must have escaped from her room leaving her all alone by herself now seeing her empty cage cried loud n heart pain which i truely understand her feelings right now as i used 2 kept sum mouse pets~
all wat i can do now is 2 pray 2 God tat she'll come back 2 my ex-gf since she's has been gone for nearly 48hrs from now~
i felt very heart pain cuz since our broke up n she neva gave me a last chance 2 take sum pic wit her n play wit her for 1 last time which now i'm even unhappy n sad for my ex-gf losing our lovely cute pet who had accompany her for da passed 13months+1day during our ups n downs in relationship n really hope tat she'll come back 2 mommy in tis few days time~
n as for me,even thou she's not close or bond wit me n did babysit my lil daughter few hrs a week due 2 her facial wash in mid valley n for few day due my ex-gf wen out-station few days n i too felt da pain in my heart n as i type now wit my tears rolling down :`(
i love my lil daughter minnie~





lonely~ by akon

1st day of life~

tis is 1st day after 2months of broke up n starting my new day 2day~
dunno wat 2 do yet so will jus stay at home wit my cyber world as usual n listening 2 youtube+mp3 n downdload sum new songs n learn new things which i neva tot of doin tat as i've been spending 2 much time wit my girl last time~
it's time for me 2 get up n b myself for who n wat i am~
i might still look like 2nd version of man of steel+no feeling from wat u all might seen me from outside but pls try not 2 hurt my heart/feelings as they're frigile like a glass n soft like a wool/durian~

i will survice~ by gloria gaynor
beautiful~ by akon

so much relieve~

ah,i'm so much relieve now after met P.Steven a.k.a. dad,fren or buddy n burst out from da moment wen i saw him walking toward me n i hugged him n cry n wept on his shoulder for quite a long time which i dunno how long but i know kinda longer than d last time i hugged n cry on him was like at least got 4-5yrs back. tis time he's da last person who i seek as i knew he's a busy man wit him work tat's y i dun planned 2 disturb him at all but not 2day cuz i knew he's goin to DH n i force myself out n met him n at least now i know tat he'll b always there for me even thou i'm in my darkest/saddest hr of my life he's da only refuge tat only can b there for me other than da 1 whom i truely love wit all my life~

n i wanna special thanks to my new fren[Alvin] from lowyat[LYN] member has been my nice hearing ears n also accompany me had my late dinner+supper n to my surprise da food there was really nice n i ate so much till having a hard time 2 sit down now~ XD

man in da mirror~

finally~

it's has been exactly 2 months since she left me~
feels so sad n still couldn't let it go fully as she was once d girl whom i really love n care so much in my life n whom also da only girl so far can accept me for all my weakness~
i'll b spending most of my time blogging since i got nothing better 2 do as i jus came back from my ex-gf's house area after looking at her damage kelisa makes me so heart broken see-ing her beloved 'lau gong' no longer leng zai edi~
da workmanship is very bad knocking from wat i can c n i really cannot accept it but no choice had 2 accept it also cuz she's no longer my gf any more but other guy's gf as for now~
jus hope he can help her 2 seal up 3inch scar hole on her rear bumper below otherwise will start 2 rust n water will go in~
jus wish i could end my life jus like tat~

total eclipse of my heart - by bonnie tyler

sigh,another sad day n mood swings~

jus out of curiousity 2 find out y my mood suddenly swings tis 2 days n finally drove ard n found out tat my ex-got in2 accident these few days back n i was so sad 2 c da scar on her rear bonet n from da damage i saw her bumper got a big hit :`(
really reminds me of wen my grandpa passed away on tat day i can't concentrade on my work n lost focus on my work n wasted a bottle of engine oil while servicing a kenari. at 1st i tot not enuf sleep or not enuf coffee of da day but only found out tat on tat nite itself ard 2.30 am tat my grandpa passed away n few yrs back during my my mom's side mom passed away n i had these kind of weird feelings n also wen my dearest pet died on da day n these feeling came 2 me n wen i pop n look d d cage n saw them lying there dead~
how 2 make my heart now become a stone tat really totally numb as i had promised them tat i'll neva contact them or sms them or even talk about her as they also wan me out of her life but i couldn't do it cuz sum how i also dunno but i really hope tat i can jus forget her n vanish her from my memory but i jus can't do it~
sigh~
i really need 2 let it be sang by beatles~ :`(

ah,wat a tiring day~

2day was 1 of my tiring day as i need 2 settle ytd's car which i din't get 2 finish up causing my dear fren couldn't get more sleep n need 2 come over early in da morning to 9 tim his car n re-set his alignment,then came another fren who come for major servicing change engine oil,gear oil n change fuel filter+engine fushing then while half way raining n another car came 2 do his alignment after i detected his car's front right absorber was leaking ytd n wen 2 claim from da guy whom he bought n finally after finish work i wen dinner wit 1 of my fren then collected another customer's spoiler which got delay-ed from spraying 2nd time due 2 lack of quality of workmanship giving by d guy n wasted my time n money doin double work n OT to my max n really make my whole day very busy n tiring n came back ard 10pm which i hardly do my work n work really hard for my sake 2 relieve my stress n tension as i'm no longer attach cuz normally by tis kinda of time i normally sms chat wit my girl till she falls asleep then i'll play sum on9 games n do sum small chatting till my turn 2 sleep till next day where another day for my journey of life~

suddenly tis song pop out in my mind 2 listen from Jon Bon Jovi - Always

my car satria~

since after broke up from a long term relationship 2yrs 4months 2weeks n 13hrs,i've no longer need 2 worries about my finiancial about all my engagement n saving for my future wit my girl. jus got myself a set of 2nd 14" 5 spoke rims from Enkei which i've been looking for so long n finally 1 day i got 1 wit a very good condition+tip top n original paint~
jus got it install+a set of brand new michelin tires wit it but 2 bad cuz i wanted d pilot preceda series but no longer in production cuz low in demand in da market~ [^,^]v
will upload d pic wen i get a good phone 2 dl all kinds of pics which i normally likes 2 take pics~

my single life~

yeah,since i'm back 2 my single life n do not know wen will i even goin 2 get another loving gf who is willing 2 accept who n wat am i especially 2 of my main weakness point which is 1st of all is my body's backbone was hurt during a riding my fav bike 2 work 8yrs ago 2 work n got bang by tis stupid malay woman came out from d junction without stopping at d double line which causes me a life time injuries n lastly which sum of u may already knew tat i had a nose prob which i also dun even y or wat happen but on my way for my operation discussing how 2 do it wit my insurance agent 2 claim on my medical fees~ i do really hope tat i can able smell n da 1st thing i wan 2 smell all my fav food since my gf has left me otherwise she will b my 1st ever person tat i'm goin 2 catch her n smells her lovely hair+her perfumes as i knows tat she likes perfume very much but jus 2 bad i can't smell how wonderful she is to me~ jus hoping for da day like d song sang by Aaron Kwok - Para Para Sakura :`)

my beloved grandpa~

tis morning wen i woke up,suddenly i remembered n recalled tat it's almost a yr since my grandpa passed away ard mid dec but he fell down at my dad's workshop roadside n fracture his right hip's bone causing him can't walk again. thinking n flashing bak my memory,i can't i spend more time wit him n get wat he wanna eat rather than letting him walk 2 d kopitiam beside my dad's shop than jus kept my self busy wit work n gain more money 2 spend wit my dear during weekends. wen he passed away part of my life wen off n part of da life of Toh's family also wen missing cuz usually he n my grandma always follow my dad's go 2 work at workshop everyday without fail-ed~
thing weren't used 2 b wen he was still wit us as he always make my grandma pissed off cuz he always walk here n there n make himself dirty wit car's stuff as he was so used 2 work very hard 2 support his big family as he got all together 4 sons n 5 daughters,n he came from China wit nothing but had his wife[my grandma] to support ups n down till 2day,my dad,his elder bro n youngest bro owns a very successfull tire shop in old klang road 3 1/2miles where by many regular customer come back for their best alignment n balancing service~
now tat he's gone already 10months,everything seems 2 b so diff especially during nite time after dinner where my grandpa likes 2 talk 2 himself or reading his bible for himselff n my grandma always nag or scold grandpa for making so much noise tat she cannot rest properly in da balcony,sum time they always argue about their passed life during wen they were younger time where i wasn't even existed in2 tis world,since da day wen he gone,my grandma has been crying n weeping over grandpa as she was so attach 2 him more than 65yrs n often said 'tim kai lei hui tu ng tai ngo yat chai chau' which means 'y u wen off also dun bring me along' n often i slept downstair beside her door 2 accompany her. even now out of da blues especially on sun morning often wen i woke up n saw her sitting at balcony wit her tears rolling down n sum times she cried cuz she's still missing over grandpa~
now tat my girl has left me,i got more time 2 spend wit my grandma at home while waiting for my parents 2 come back from church then send her 2 church ard 1.40pm~
jus wanna say thank u to da person who really came for my beloved grandpa's funeral which is my childhood fren wei jun n his gf,ah-fei n his gf n special thanks to my girl who was there wit me during my saddest time wen he passed away cuz i'm da only 1 grandson wasn't there for him wen da day he passed away as my mom ask me 2 stay at home since i work till quite late only come back n come next day~

i jus wanna dedicate tis song for my true fren in life which is a song from Dido - Thank You n Here with me

i must move on~

finally i've made up my mind tat i'll neva goin 2 fall in love again in tis shortest time n it might even take longer time 2 recover than my previous relationship which i had edi so phobia wit it till 3yrs later i had found sum1 who i tot i can really love her n spend time for da rest of life wit her as she can really love me for wat n who am i even thou i'm not a perfect guy wit no sence of smell but only can taste my food n also my back prob which i had an accident 8yrs back ago wen i got an accident which tis stupid malay woman come out from d junction without stopping on d double line n i got a direct hit causing me having a long term of back-bone injuries.
during my most critical time,i'll neva wan 2 rely on other ppl's help wat else my ex-gf's mom hated me so much tat she could said 2 her most precious lil girl tat i stick 2 her bcuz of her money n yet till da day she call-ed it off,i've proven tat i've not cheated her love or d money as she did sub 2 credit card which is for collection purpose n she did 2 told me 2 use it even i got not enuf money to use it. she also said tat i cheated her daughter's money wen i help her change rims n tires to smaller size which is from 14" to 13" due to 2 reasons i do tat cuz wit her stock size 14" came wit da car using cheap tire 'sime tire' n it's so bumpy n uncomfortable 2 sit on n another reason which is she's starting 2 adapting 2 my driving style which brake lesser n start 2 drive faster n reckless like me so i gave her 13" which is much more comfortable n i gave her for free 1 of d best tire which i can get is 'michelin' which is much better grip on da road n better handling then her 14" which i fish-tail b4 during downhill from genting.
i might b a lil hot tempered but i wasn't really given a chance 2 fully change as she's drifting away from me day after day by looking for another guy to console wen ever she's down or sad instead of me,i had told her b4 wen ever i raised my voice,pissed or angry i gave her fully permission 2 hit me,slap me or box me but she choose 2 bite me but so far she only bit me once on my shoulder which my tears nearly came out till then da day v broke up she neva bit me anymore,n there comes guy who is still attach to his gf came in2 my girl's life n try 2 couple wit her n he did couple wit my girl who is also still wit me at da same time.

after v broke up she finally make up her mind b wit tis guy forever n ard 1month+ only he dumped his current gf who was wit him for 2yrs supporting him ups n downs n tis how he respect his gf for wat she had done so much for him?? he even scolded me for not respecting my girl last thurs on 08-10-09 outside of her house n i accepted it cuz i know i deserve it but everything change till i found out da truth which he was playing my back all tis while n i really regret n dispise of him for nagging n scolding me which now who din't respect who 1st ?? tis is wat i call an affair n betrayal of of him which i've once thinking he's a fren who is good 2 me n whom i can trust till wat he did is totally un-acceptable 2 me. neva i tot he's my 3rd party while my ex-gf was his 3rd party causing me n tat girl suffer so much tat she n me nearly got killed in accident~
i here by now will stand still wit my both feet n work my ass out of me n try 2 enjoy myself now to my fullest~
wat i feel now is

THE MOON REPRESENTS MY HEART*YUE LIANG DAI BIAO WO DE XIN

betrayal of 3rd party ppl !!

i couldn't believe myself tat 3rd party has been happening 2 me again deja vu as my ex-gf a.k.a wife 2 b was also a 3rd party in relationship which causes other ppl's relationship 2 broke up whom i knew all of them 2gether which i used 2 call them as good fren~
in da begining i neva suspected anything about 3rd party till 1 day i accidentally met my fren[Charmaine] n talk 2 her for few hrs n realise tat her bf[Isaac] was my 3rd party spanar n took my girl away on sun morning n finally 2day i couldn't believe tat 1 of her ji mui finally admited tat they also support my gf 2 b a 3rd party also!!!
in my life being ruin by 3rd party twice n i can't believe tis time my very own gf soon 2 b my future wife became a 3rd party to another couple!! she hated so much of those 3rd party ppl who ruin's ppl's life n marriage so much n finally now she became 1!!
how stupid am i din't realise it till i've collected all d jig saw puzzle n put them in2 1 complete piece of pic n nearly make me get heart-attack due to my high blood pressure n high cholestrol lvl,how stupid am i did not find out earlier tat they were already planning 2 get 2gether n i cry n weep for nearly a month n i can't eat properly,sleep properly till i lose 4kgs for nothing for da girl of my life who i love her so much all tis yrs of relationship as i've also took her as part of my life n soul till da day i finally found out tat she betray me tis time!! i even got her a ring for our engagement[even thou i know it's cheap 1] b4 i can even propose for engagement 2 her on da 09-09-09 which is a special day for all couples who choose 2 marry!!!

how stupid am i tat i tot had a very nice,pretty,chubby n innocent girl gf who is a 3rd party of another couple!!!

my very 1st time blogging~

It's early mon morning n i still can't sleep bcuz of my recently broke up relationship wit my girl of my life whom already prepare for engagement wit her on 09-09-2009.
well,mayb tat's fate not meant 2gether as another reason tat her parents neva likes me in da 1st place wen they got 2 know tat me n their daughter were serious in relationship starting on 04-04-2007 early morning after a mid nite show wit her on 03-04-2007.
i'm still keeping all my memories n all our pic 2gether both happy n sad time n our relationship lasted till 17th of August 2009 which is 2yrs 4month n 2wks being together wen she called off ard at 1300hrs~
now jus waiting for time 2 heal both my body n my broken heart as it was seriously hard time for me 2 let go especially all our sweet n happy time being 2gether to all places like my fav place 2 chilled up in genting wit my gf then cameron highland,bukit tinggi,melaka n port dickson~

dun really know wat 2 write as i was so bored+flash back wat has happen 2 me n finally i realise tat there was d 3rd party in my relationship~

all i wan 2 thanks to few of my fren who knows tat i got broken up wit my girl ard 2months back n they brought me out for a drink wit their friends+chilled n etc etc~
i'm goin 2 express out my feelings putting a song b4 i log off as music is my life n also my ex-gf also likes music~
tis is 1 of my fav song by MLTR[micheal learns 2 rock]
U took my heart away~