Tuesday, October 13, 2009

i must move on~

finally i've made up my mind tat i'll neva goin 2 fall in love again in tis shortest time n it might even take longer time 2 recover than my previous relationship which i had edi so phobia wit it till 3yrs later i had found sum1 who i tot i can really love her n spend time for da rest of life wit her as she can really love me for wat n who am i even thou i'm not a perfect guy wit no sence of smell but only can taste my food n also my back prob which i had an accident 8yrs back ago wen i got an accident which tis stupid malay woman come out from d junction without stopping on d double line n i got a direct hit causing me having a long term of back-bone injuries.
during my most critical time,i'll neva wan 2 rely on other ppl's help wat else my ex-gf's mom hated me so much tat she could said 2 her most precious lil girl tat i stick 2 her bcuz of her money n yet till da day she call-ed it off,i've proven tat i've not cheated her love or d money as she did sub 2 credit card which is for collection purpose n she did 2 told me 2 use it even i got not enuf money to use it. she also said tat i cheated her daughter's money wen i help her change rims n tires to smaller size which is from 14" to 13" due to 2 reasons i do tat cuz wit her stock size 14" came wit da car using cheap tire 'sime tire' n it's so bumpy n uncomfortable 2 sit on n another reason which is she's starting 2 adapting 2 my driving style which brake lesser n start 2 drive faster n reckless like me so i gave her 13" which is much more comfortable n i gave her for free 1 of d best tire which i can get is 'michelin' which is much better grip on da road n better handling then her 14" which i fish-tail b4 during downhill from genting.
i might b a lil hot tempered but i wasn't really given a chance 2 fully change as she's drifting away from me day after day by looking for another guy to console wen ever she's down or sad instead of me,i had told her b4 wen ever i raised my voice,pissed or angry i gave her fully permission 2 hit me,slap me or box me but she choose 2 bite me but so far she only bit me once on my shoulder which my tears nearly came out till then da day v broke up she neva bit me anymore,n there comes guy who is still attach to his gf came in2 my girl's life n try 2 couple wit her n he did couple wit my girl who is also still wit me at da same time.
after v broke up she finally make up her mind b wit tis guy forever n ard 1month+ only he dumped his current gf who was wit him for 2yrs supporting him ups n downs n tis how he respect his gf for wat she had done so much for him?? he even scolded me for not respecting my girl last thurs on 08-10-09 outside of her house n i accepted it cuz i know i deserve it but everything change till i found out da truth which he was playing my back all tis while n i really regret n dispise of him for nagging n scolding me which now who din't respect who 1st ?? tis is wat i call an affair n betrayal of of him which i've once thinking he's a fren who is good 2 me n whom i can trust till wat he did is totally un-acceptable 2 me. neva i tot he's my 3rd party while my ex-gf was his 3rd party causing me n tat girl suffer so much tat she n me nearly got killed in accident~
i here by now will stand still wit my both feet n work my ass out of me n try 2 enjoy myself now to my fullest~
wat i feel now is

THE MOON REPRESENTS MY HEART*YUE LIANG DAI BIAO WO DE XIN

4 comments:

  1. All Wasn't true.. U say u want let ur girl go but at last U don't do it.. U even hurt Her so much. U treat her bad, U scold her for small things.. U tot she deserve to give you scold??
    Before U say about the guy, pls think of what have u done to your girl.. Her mom scolded you, U deserve it. Her mom never scold her from chilhood til teenage, but YOU DID ! Do u know how paint in her parent's heart becoz their daughter was being scolded by a man who is untidy,bad temper,do not behave, and the most bad thing is always think he is de best and he is the most smart person..

    You deserve to get the ending coz U hurt her..U do not appreciate her when she was couple with you for almost 2 years. She cried for you when u hurt her, she argue with her friends becoz of u.. She even move away from her house becoz argue about YOU with her parents.. At the end, you never appreciated and U still giving a bad face for her..
    You deserve to get the pain..

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  2. oh,ya kah? ?
    her mom edi dun like me in da 1st place wen she knows tat v're 2gether seriously after 2-3weeks of relationship~
    untidy? ?
    i tie my hair everyday man,like tat also ur business? ?
    btw it was 2yrs 4months n 2wks n 13hrs 2gether n it was only u who said i dun appreciate her but u dunno me well enuf~
    she edi wasn't mine already since v broke up early tis yr for losing trust on me n most time she look for him instead of me~
    if i dun appreciate her then i too won't sacrifice so much for her n also planned 2 marry her as v discuss about it last time wen she move 2 my house~
    well,all i can said now is both he n she was d 3rd party in da both relationship~

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  3. If you do appreciate her.. ask yourself why u hurt her? scolded her for small things? even she actually did not do wrong.. but you scold her ?

    I only can say you hurt her..
    anyway.. u said they are 3rd party.. this is what u think .. Its from your mouth.. As you like how you think.. I dun feel that I need to wake you up anymore.. you are really in deep hurt n sad right now..

    I just can say.. If you really love her,dont disturb her.. let her have a better life..and you may enjoy ur life once again ~
    Take care yourself..

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  4. i did not scold her for small things but sum times my voice raised a bit higher n she takes me like scolding her so wat can i do? ?
    anyway she neva tell me da truth/talk 2 me wen she was sad during da last few months being 2gether b4 she broke up wit me as she n me promised last time will b true wit each other n no matter wat will b on her ownself to me but she did not do it n in d end she decided 2 put me off her life i know there's no more chance as i've my last chance b4 her birthday tis yr n sadly many more prob came out in out relationship which she edi lost trust on me but i jus dun understand y can't she give me 100% trust wen she can give me another chance back 2gether???
    about d 3rd party came in my mind 2 put it tis was cuz i've collected enuf all da puzzle tat each 1 of u've said so tat's is y i put it tat way~
    if u truely can tell me everything truthfully y not i accept it but wen u lie 2 me so wat r u goin 2 say now??
    all i wan jus d trith of everything but everything seems 2 b a lie till i need 2 find out everything~
    do u think i wanna call her 3rd party? ?
    do u think i like it ? ?
    it's bcuz of wat u've said wit ur own mouth tat u supported her so now u wanna denied wat u've said,ms.wong? ?

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